Disillusions of Grandeur

Illusion
is for the dreamer
not the dreamed.
I have trod
the foot marks
of both
only to find
the dream
less satisfying
when the illusion
became
the reality
that the
happiness
imagined
was the entirety
of it all.

On musing,
it dissolves
only to
have been
seen
clearly
in youth.

Now,
I consider
a new perception
that will
carry me through
more moments
hoping and imagining
it will again
be in my control,
knowing full well
that it is
the new lie
I will
be telling
myself.

~Abigail Engel
June 2016